My writing mentor is working with me on emotion. YUCK! Feelings are so, girlie. Yet she has stretched me and I’m learning much about the craft of writing.
My assignment was to rewrite a blog and explain why I prefer sunshine over clouds. It made me dig deep. Cold, I hate to be cold. That’s it…no other feelings except for that…end of story. But she wouldn’t relent. So I sat at my computer waiting for something to come. Tick tock, tick tock, nothing. Then, I felt a slight stirring deep down and I cautiously began typing. Next thing I knew, tears began to flow. By the end of my rewrite, I was bawling!
I finished pouring out my heart on the page and then sent it to her. Her response, “Much better. I hope this was difficult for you, Dawna Dear.”
It was difficult. The more I learn about writing, the harder it becomes.
So here’s my rewrite…what I didn’t tell you…my heart on my sleeve.
Once a week I do a yoga routine called Wholyfit, which quotes scripture while holding poses. One posture is called “gift”—a standing side bend that instructs me to reach out with my hand as if receiving a gift from God. While holding that stance, I wondered how many gifts I’d missed from simply not receiving them. I closed my eyes as if to push back the regret of saying, “No” to His gifts. Leaning further yet, I stretched out my hand as far as I could. I promise to receive your gifts today. Give me another chance.
The next two days, the forecast is rain. You know I’m solar powered so with no sunshine on the horizon, I’m grumbling because I don’t like to be cold. Sun-kissed skin warms my soul, but it’s more than just my body temperature. It’s the chill deep inside me. The looming clouds bring memories of the day my grandma, my precious Caston died. Water falling from the sky, like the tears that flooded my heart.
Yet, rain is a gift. The day I lost Caston, it rained—she was a gift to heaven. I had to open my hand and let her go.
Today, as I choose to lean forward with hand open to receive the coming storm, I learn how to accept all that God gives. And takes away.
So lean forward.
Reach out your hand.
And simply receive.